SELFISH LOVE Written by E.O.P. (Evolution of Poetry)

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
Selfish love

As I think of you so many thoughts run through my head
Listening to the whisper of your voice in the distance
Excites me, yet renders me powerless
Because of my selfish love

You see time and time again
I have listened to your lies
When looking into your in the eyes,
I have seen the truth
Yet I still choose to believe you with my selfish love

I miss the sound of your laughter in the air
Filling the mass spaces of emptiness that surrounds me
That emptiness that feels the very depths of my soul
Longing to have you here next to me
Wrapping me up in your strong arms
Until I smell the scent of her perfume
As it tares through me like a sword
Slashing my heart & soul in two pieces
Knowing that she was intimate with you
Knowing if I ask it will just be another
Notch on my belt of selfish love

Just once I would love to hear the truth
As I sit her contemplating
If I should leave
Just pack my shit and run away
Wondering would you even love me
Would you ever think of me?
Or even miss me when I’m gone
Or would you just run to her
As though I never existed
How could I have ever loved you so selfishly?

You see God gives us great perception
You know that internal instant that keeps us on our toes
I saw you the other day
Laughing hard and chatting it up at the coffee shop
I started to introduce myself
But my instant says, “No just observe from the distance”
You see that selfish love was turning me into someone else
Someone I had never seen
You see, Selfish love will indeed bleed

As I watched her fixed your neck tie
I thought about the many hours
I spent washing, drying & ironing your clothes
As she feed you a bagel
I though about the many dinners
I planned for us when you were working late
And never called to say you couldn’t even make it home
I mean serious how selfish could my love have been

As I hear the sound of a child voice calling you “Daddy”
When I’m the one you beat,
The one who suffered at the hands of your abuse
Only to never be able to bear your seed
Yet I stayed with you in fear of my life
When your selfish ass is out living a whole new life
Just how deep can selfish love kill?

Oh so many tragic thoughts
My heart is racing
Beating out of my chest
Oh lord help me I can’t catch my breathe
Blurred vision, flashing back to those beatings
When you were choking me unconscious
And then making love to me as I laid there
Bloody and lifeless,
Scrambling to find my sanity
BANG! BANG! BANG!
My selfish love has just rested upon your chest

©2011 COCOVINGTON…. E.O.P “Evolutions Of Poetry”
Picture
Add Comment
 

RIGHT WRONGNESS

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
RIGHT WRONGNESS

my eyes pierce the veil of reality
It reveals that I know little
through years of study, the biggest reward was ego
and that I live in the paradox of knowing more, to not know
what substance is actually substantive?
It seems objects are projections of a multilayered mind, a shard consciousness
and its all illusory, no matter the perspective
life is hopelessly trapped in the relative truths
and idealisms called universal truth is dim romance
protecting sheltered minds from the idea of no savior
I sit back and ponder, I fear, I doubt
exceedingly consumed by isolation and the callous
but, then I am reminded of something subtle
a warm blanket of truth that defies my understanding
confounds my ideas of the world and the universe
it comes upon me, hugs me, and warms my soul
I have encountered love, and I bask in the fact that I am totally wrong

DEOZI
Add Comment
 

RANDOM HEART

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
RANDOM HEART

your mind is so rigid, you cold critics
and mentally small, for the call, to express, a soul visit
those who express love, receives a gold ticket
those who express hate, are just troll/bigots
courageous in heart, so only the bold live it
fake counterfeits in life, could only mold gimics
I represent the past, and the untold village
old mother Africa, where devil's stole Kemet
religious people rich, because they sold spirit
loving my self, my family, is the whole image!
Add Comment
 

MISSING

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
MISSING

since I have to address you as Miss
misprint, misstep, misspoke, is your name
you misrepresented yourself in this matter
you called me a miscreant lacking mystique
you must have been mistaken
now your eyes are misty because you feel mistreated
as if my plight in life, was to make you a mistress
now that's a misappropiation of love funds
lacking balance, equilibrium, a misalignment in nature
it was never my intention to mislead
don't act like a misanthrope
it's really just a misunderstanding

I still love you

DEOZI
Add Comment
 

WHO ARE YOU, EL KHALIL?

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
 WHO ARE YOU, MR. EL KHALIL?

I was: born to legacy, via borne supremacy
how I live my life, is how I form the melody
the envious, the hater, forewarns the enemy
personal gifts, that spawns the jealousy
I think for myself, so you think I'm drawn to heresy
no balance, that's why world, longs for symmetry
arrested development and the song for tenessee
new birth, new day, with a stronger pedigree
we victimized to drug, weak pawns for henessy
government involvement, keep a stronger recipe
from California, to the Bronx or Chessapeake
My mission in this world, is to conquer Destiny!

DEOZI
Add Comment
 

HOME

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
HOME

you are my home and safe haven

when I concern myself with legacy and children, you are my mansion

gestating wisdom and life, and are the incubator of destiny

nine months of creative forces broken into three triads of principles

who can tell you that you are not the image of the Creator

if no one had seen the Source, surely you are the closest approximation

the genuine article in the flesh, the efficient genetic disposition

you are my home and foundation

and though you look to me for guidance, I am not egotistical

I know that within you lies my power and fortitude

my desire to live beyond this physical body is your gift to me

with your legs spread, you give me longevity and an everlasting name

you are perfectly built, a wonderful design

how I love your presence, and adore the space you occupy

word cannot express your impact, because inside you

I have made my home

DEOZI
Add Comment
 

RUMINATIONS

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
RUMINATIONS

my mind is a search engine, my memories are what the earth mentions
traveling through space, a cursed ensign
worries, frustration, plagued with the worst tension
vigorous fights, tear muscles, and burst tendons
see life is a nature fight, only those with cunning, and major might
have the strength and will, to save a life
in a garden untamed, with lifeforms, still unnamed
the violent seeking gun fame
lies and deceits, are a putrid tongue stain
but courage, is the type of rebel music, none change
it exists, with the misfits, the dismissed
those on a sh*t list, where the powerful just say, tsk, tsk
some commit suicide, evidence, a slit wrist
some fight, get bloodied, by a mob's sick fist
there's no words, sometimes life is that absurd
So let the wise, figure it out, when they observe

DEOZI
Add Comment
 

PLACEBO

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
PLACEBO

whoever wants to listen to my rhymes, hear knowledge
its like visiting me, in a time share cottage
my poetry's a woman, she's a dime, near-goddess
the best furniture, giving a shine, clear, polished
it's something like wine fermented
a utopian world, where there's angels, and crimes prevented
a coca cola shape, a behind tremendous
great body, great mind, a divine percentage
overwhelming stimuli, you might need a break
your alert, instead of sleeping, you might dream awake
eating all the Ambrosia, Elohim awaits
the food will say hello, but the hello means, a taste
of the goodness, ya tastebuds crave
my poetry seduces, every person, into make love slaves
seeing pink, take a drink, cuz I'll watch you sink
into infinite chasms of orgasmic ink
a hater speaks, who cares what the bastard thinks
if poetry's a chain, then I mastered links

DEOZI
Add Comment
 

NAZARETH RISING

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
NAZARETH RISING

use to eat wrong foods, but now you juice tea blends
with a style thats catchy, like a Bruce Lee trend
studying old culture, to produce free men
into self improvement, and recruit key friends
for the inner circle, royalty, so give the winner purple
even though they act awkward, and release the inner Urkel
it's no peer pressure, the climate will always show fair weather
when it's simple, making folks hear better
trickery is like sayings, ghosts fear pleasure
plenty lies, they brought across, but do most care? never!
a federal reserve note is first, and I heard folks in church
pimp the bible, every word, quote, and verse
pastor 'get money', very verbose, and worst
behind the scene, you could hear the old bird, boast, and curse
see the real people, are those who want peace, and want answers
but end up, giving all, so the prophet, could be pampered
living in luxury, and avarice
while poor people suffer, they desire, to be like the man from Nazareth

DEOZI
Add Comment
 

Post Title.

08/20/2011

0 Comments

 
NATURE OF THE WAY

In the quality of life, only the best must last
enjoying sunny days, and fresh cut grass
its a school of mysticism, but guess what class
that I'm in, people mock, with a messed up laugh
it's where my soul started, dedicated to spirit wholehearted
hoping that my lyrics mold artists
a mentoring process, some training, some explaining
reinterpret the canvas, for the picture, that you're painting
it's according to whatever the day brings
the written word is a sword, or a blade, that can slay kings
destroy or build empires, false documents make men liars
good minds, you can't replace, when hired
to fight against the corrupted, law and legal system
we want power, but ignorance, spawns evil wisdom
lets get back to Kemet, back to Carthage
Timbuktoo and harness, the codes of nations, to be the smartest!
fight consumer driven slavery, media born harlots
cuz our conditioning, makes easier formed targets!

DEOZI
Add Comment
 
<< Previous
Forward >>